Had sort of a round-about-day. Started the day off in a bad/in a rut mood- as you may have seen from my earlier post. It all got me thinking, and doing some self-examination.
Around lunch time J and I met up, as usual. He went for a sandwich, me a bagel, both overpriced at $5.00 each. Really? I hate how the school inflates everything. Thankfully I have the means to go elsewhere for whatever I want, but what about those from out of state or without cars? The only grocery store in walking distance (and it's a serious walk!) is a nicer, Lunds.
But, what I'm really getting at here is-
Obviously with the economic situation at hand people, especially graduating students, are taking it hard. I am so, so, so lucky to have my daycare job, and I very well can stay there if need be. I am hoping, praying, and sending good thoughts to my friends looking for jobs. It's a really hard time. It's so frustrating to feel like you've put in your "dues" and to graduate with nothing in sight, and we're talking entry level positions. I know that eventually things will "let up," and in fact, there is grandeur in this view of life.
This all came to me over a much needed coffee date with Emma. Love the lady. She graduated in December, and is doing the amazing networking, searching, informational interview thang. She's so smart, and dedicated, and I'm so glad we got to spend time together.
As we were sipping our drinks, in the sun filled coffee house we started to really talk about all the good stuff that can come from this view and type of life. Really, when was the last time I didn't' have to watch the clock and sit down with someone? Life is not about money, or lack of, but what we tend to remember (or at least I do) when I look back fondly on memories is the time I spent with people. And I've got a not so perfect gpa to show for it. And I frankly, don't care. I went into college with the hopes that I'd figure out what I would do, have adventures, and meet Mr. Fabulous. I never imagined I'd meet some of my not-from-birth sisters. But I have. The memories I have made with my friends have shaped and molded me more than any test or paper.
I am so thankful for this perspective. I am thankful for friends, and J, and my family. I love knowing that no matter what, I will be ok.
I have no idea why I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, and I am looking forward to Church tonight, and lots of homework after. But I do know that my coffee date and the sun reminded me of the mindset that just keeps me going.
Carly Simon had it right when she sang: Take a look around now/ Change the direction/ Adjust the tuning/ Try a new translation/ Just because you don't see shooting stars Doesn't mean it isn't perfect.
